I believe that everyone have a brain, so make sure you make full use of it. Why i'm saying this is because i am currently pissed off with my second brother and my mum. I know i shouldn't get pissed with them cause they are my family but i tell you what, they had offended me. Not once but twice or even more. I can't stand it. I'm not bringing down their names or makes all of you thinks negatively about them, No. I just want them to realised if i ever exist in their life. I know they don't feel that i'm exist. They don't even want to look at my face. So, i feel like i'm a stranger. I am part of family but now, i don't feel like i am. Frankly, i don't hate them. I just dislike them cause they treated me like as if i'm their dogs/dolls or whatever they thought i am.

I know i am the last to used the computer but that doesn't mean i'm the one who cause the computer to broke down. But then, the computer did not broke down right? Still can be switch on right? Thank god for that. And next, the internet cannot be used. And again, you blamed it on me. Is it fair? Oh, i'm the last to use the computer so i'm the one who caused it lar? Definitely, no. Fuck you for blaming for almost everything. I am useless, hopeless. I'm the one who does this and that and i'm the one who click on the virus. Everyone, blame it on me! Yes, me. What the fish, i'm soooo pissed off. You think i don't know how to use the computer? I can say that i'm way better in handling computer than you do. At least, i don't download such things at the computer except for songs. That's it. And, baikbaik computer aku suci, kau kasi kotor kan computer aku. paham2 lar eh. Sucker.

I know i've been coming back home recently but i tell you i have fun with my friends. I don't feel like my family appreciate me in their life. I don't feel they feel my presence except my sister. Eventhough she beats me up, scold me but there's a reason behind it. My mum called me when i'm at my uncle's house having a gathering and ask me why i'm not home yet? Hello, i'm at my own uncle's house for godness sake! And its near to our house.. Can't i at least got back home a little bit late? Somemore, i'm with my sister and brother and why you're so eager to ask me to go back home early when actually its only at 8. woa, dah pandai control nmpk? aku nie sape seh. aku tau ar aku ni out of control but nie family gathering seh, tkyah nk suroh balek cepat ar. aku tau bile and wat time nk alik tau. aku dah big enough to think seh. Have trust on me. You said i'm all grown up but still, you have not give me those trust yet. I am your daughter. I follow you everywhere you go. Wedding invitations, party and all. But yet, you still treat me like a stranger. Aku ni anjing. ikut mane2 dier gi. And at the same time, i feel like a tissue paper. Enough, enough. I need your trust and your support. You've not been giving me moral support for me to work even harder but infact, you've been saying hurtful words and harsh words on me which makes me not to study anymore. Haizzzzzz.

this is for someone. (hoping that he would read it although i know he didn't.)
maybe, you've already know the truth from someone but maybe you just don't feel like what i feel. but never to changed yourself and affect others badly. have some thoughts of other's feelings rather than to think of yourself. please, i'm begging you. be yourself whenever you're chatting, talking, see or whatever that connects to me. just because of this small issues, you've turned to someone whom i don't recorgnise at all. i am sad, so upsad to see the changes that you've made. but however, i am still going to move on. never to waste my time but i'm going to wait for you to changed. i am going to wait. it's okay if you've move on with the girl you love but i'll make sure your life won't be at ease. cheh, macam paham. frankly, i missed the old times we had.