I am tired of trying because I don't see my effort is working. I've put in hopes in myself to be strong but in the end, things ain't going my way. I am not going to drag this thing much because I believed I can overcome all this shits. I am so dissapointed with you.

Let's talk about today. Today is thursday which means I will be staying at home all day long eventhough I had angklung today but I didn't turned up due to some reasons that I have. I sleep at 2am after hearing Misteri Jam 12 and I hear it alone because my mom had to work OT and I have no choice but to sleep alone. The next morning, I feel so tired and my eyes are so heavy for me to open it big. Aqilah is the one who woke me up by her kiss. Awww, so sweet. When I ask my mom what time is it, she said it's already 1pm so I thought there's no tuition. I continue sleeping. And I woke up again to double check. Luckily my handphone was just right beside me and I check, its only 9 plus. Mom cheat my feelings! Orang ade lar ingat tkde tuition. I was a bit pissed off but thank god, it's only 9. Tuition starts at 11. and I sleep, assuming that there's no tuition today :] Anyway, I can still sleep until my tutor came. I rush and had a quick bathe and start everything. The worst is, I forget to do yesterday's homework that were given. But on the other hand, I don't really understand the topic.

I watched DVD all by myself today. I'm proud that I almost finished the whole DVDs that I've borrowed from Anisah. Left a few more to go. At first I thought Apa Artinya Cinta was boring and I almost wanted to stop half-way. But then, I decided to continue watching. Hey, thank god I did not stop it because it was the best ever love story show that I've ever watched. You should watch it. I know cerite dah lame but best pe. Hahahah. I've yet to watch Rahsia Bintang and there's my husband thereeeeeeee. Dimas Seto :]

I miss Cinta Fitri. I miss Teuku Wisnu. I miss Shireen Sungkar. I miss Randy Pangalila. I miss Donita. I miss Adly fairuz. And I miss everyone that acts in Cinta Fitri. Be it the bad or the good one. I miss watching it because my friends are borrowing the CDs. I'm addicted to, Melati untuk Marvel & Terlanjur Cinta. And because of this two shows, I forget to watch Cinta Fitri at sensasi. But what the hell, I've got the CDs. Nothing to be worried of.

I miss Farhana. I miss Shidah. I miss Anisah. I miss Suhailah. I miss riFqee. I miss Hawa Bj. I miss Bella. I miss Wany. Frankly, I miss everyone that I know. Random aye. I don't know why. I don't feel me. It's like, its hard to see me staying at home for the whole day, you know. Its really hard.

I almost get to eat pizza just now but unfortunately, I didn't get to. I am still craving for it. Badly.

Should I go for Angklung tomorrow? But I've got something on. I think I shall end my post here :)

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