This feelings is killing me. Tell me what's wrong with me? I'm such an idiot. I've did something wrong (maybe) and in the end, I didn't even know what I've did wrong. I am no longer friendly and I don't smile at people like what I usually did. Yes, at first, I got so tempted but when its already infront/near me, the temptations seems to fade. Huh, I'm weird. Yes I am. I don't know what I really want in life cause things around me make things complicated and its hard for me to choose what I want to do. I'm tired in trying, I'm tired with failing. I want to try my best and success to get what I want. But believe in my words, it will never be. The moment I want to start trying, there must be something that hurt me and made weak that I give up in trying. Only my bestfriends knows. I am really really sad. Sometimes, I'm stress up due to thinking about how should I get closer to everyone around me and be friendly and be the old me and never made anyone to HATE me and never to made anyone critisized me and never to made anyone talk shits about me. How? Instead of giving me headace, might as well give me some motivation talks so that I can changed to the better right.

I don't have much things to say. This post is to express out my feelings. My blog my say. Words that can describe what I feel now is, I am very sad. I don't know what I should do now. I feel so useless. I have nothing in me. No one likes me. Even the one that I love. Am I right? I don't care so much about this. The matter is, I want everyone to love me FAIRLY. I don't want anyone to hold on ANY GRUDGES on me cause when it comes to conflicts, it'll be the hardest things on earth that I must solved. Eh, korang suka eh conflicts? korang suka ehk gaduh? dah tak ada keje kepe nak buat? aku dah diam, buat bodoh, kau pulak nak step besar dekat sane sini. ingat ehk, kau tak ada apa apa point yang boleh mati kan aku tau. cause aku ada banyak point boleh matikan kau. And, I'm not being one fanatic idiot girl over here. But I wanna to state clearly here. Cause berbual tak guna sebab ada orang back up. so tak best uh, orang lain tolong. boring kan. baik bace, terasa sendiri, marah sendiri. lepas tu kalau tak puas hati, main jeling-jeling. mak ai, budak kecik primary school punya game. tak main uh, boring je. jeling dapat apa, kasi muka buruk je. Hahahaha. Okay, I've talk alot so I shall end this post now. With a pathetic smile.

I don't seems to understand what I've been doing & I guess same as you. I am very confused with myself. I don't understand why people are expecting the best from me when they know I've got nothing. And just so you know, by seeing you, be it mad,sad,happy,dissapointed,or whatever feelings you have that made kinds of expressions, you still made me happy. But now, I'm jealous. So tell me, what you've did to me? Hahaha.