I can't sleep because i will be sleeping alone & i've been thinking something that hurts me. What is it eh? It's a secret, no one knows except for those who is close to me. Even if i have blog, i post it out, people can never feel it. Even if they do, they don't really feel how hurt i am. And when the moment, i'm happy, something turn me down.

It's just i can't accept the facts that she's lying. I don't care what the reasons might be. Even if she told me a lie, i don't care but i just need specific answer from her. But i've got no rights to asked. Right? I don't want to take risky decisions. I don't want to ruin people's dream. Everyone got a dream and everyone wants to achieved their dreams. So why would i want to do something bad? But if that "someone" tried to ruin mine, without any doubt, i'll ruin theirs. If they think i'm doing this for the sake of my own happiness. Yes, i'm selfish. Everyone are selfish, there's no one in the whole who let people to have their happiness, right? I don't understand what is happening but i'll just leave it to her and let her think. I guess, she's big enough to think right? And, i'm sori. I hated her for lying to me. I won't get hurt if the answer is Yes, but i'll get more hurt if i get to find it myself. Don't hide any secrets with me :( I am very dissapointed with you. Thanks for making me down. I've tried many ways to forget about this and move on but it seems that i can't and i failed. So, let's see how it goes. (what goes around comes around).

If you did this to every girl in the whole wide world, they will pissed off with you too. They will be very mad. I don't have any urge to hate you or dislike you. I love you because you're my friend. Eventhough we are not close but we still contact to make our friendship closer. But you've betrayed my trust. I've lost my trust towards you. Even if i tried, i failed. I will never give up girl, i'll try to have those trust back. And i'll do it if you appreciate me as your friend.

And if you don't get what i'm trying to type here, better don't read. Because i think this is just a emoticonal post. yeah, so everyone out there, don't take this to heart yeah. It meant for someone :) so, i'm being brave enough to type it all here.

Thanks faiz for accompany me today. On the phone from 11plus till 3.24 am so on. we talked a lot and even, HE CHEERED ME UP! he know what i felt now. He try to console me. thanks soooo muchhh! ILY(:

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