I can't sleep because i will be sleeping alone & i've been thinking something that hurts me. What is it eh? It's a secret, no one knows except for those who is close to me. Even if i have blog, i post it out, people can never feel it. Even if they do, they don't really feel how hurt i am. And when the moment, i'm happy, something turn me down.

It's just i can't accept the facts that she's lying. I don't care what the reasons might be. Even if she told me a lie, i don't care but i just need specific answer from her. But i've got no rights to asked. Right? I don't want to take risky decisions. I don't want to ruin people's dream. Everyone got a dream and everyone wants to achieved their dreams. So why would i want to do something bad? But if that "someone" tried to ruin mine, without any doubt, i'll ruin theirs. If they think i'm doing this for the sake of my own happiness. Yes, i'm selfish. Everyone are selfish, there's no one in the whole who let people to have their happiness, right? I don't understand what is happening but i'll just leave it to her and let her think. I guess, she's big enough to think right? And, i'm sori. I hated her for lying to me. I won't get hurt if the answer is Yes, but i'll get more hurt if i get to find it myself. Don't hide any secrets with me :( I am very dissapointed with you. Thanks for making me down. I've tried many ways to forget about this and move on but it seems that i can't and i failed. So, let's see how it goes. (what goes around comes around).

If you did this to every girl in the whole wide world, they will pissed off with you too. They will be very mad. I don't have any urge to hate you or dislike you. I love you because you're my friend. Eventhough we are not close but we still contact to make our friendship closer. But you've betrayed my trust. I've lost my trust towards you. Even if i tried, i failed. I will never give up girl, i'll try to have those trust back. And i'll do it if you appreciate me as your friend.

And if you don't get what i'm trying to type here, better don't read. Because i think this is just a emoticonal post. yeah, so everyone out there, don't take this to heart yeah. It meant for someone :) so, i'm being brave enough to type it all here.

Thanks faiz for accompany me today. On the phone from 11plus till 3.24 am so on. we talked a lot and even, HE CHEERED ME UP! he know what i felt now. He try to console me. thanks soooo muchhh! ILY(:

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I didn't thought that my own friend could do this to me.
tsk tsk tsk, what a life. nevermind! linda, face the world. (:

luckily, there's someone who cheer me up. who else?
F-A-I-Z lah. we've been talking craps yknow. (:
he told me that he want to migrate to New York, ah yer mcm paham ah.
and thanks ah fahmie, fr the stupid noise background. suka skali! ;p

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I'm bored right now, didn't know what to do. Sister&Bro in law went to mediacorp, didn't know why is the heck they're going there. Mum is working OT, 1st brother went out(forever didnt stick at home), second bro is sleeping & so do my uncle. I'm outside, surviving without fans and my lights are yellow in colour. I'm sweating and i've wasted a lots of tissue. If i bring out the fans, the people who are sleeping need the fans right? So, i have to endure.

sori eh friends, i didn't get the chance to follow of you to go to Countdown. nevermind babies, next time round yeah? there's still next year right? tak mati ape.

" i didn't know that you would cry badly, i don't even know who speaks the truth. it's hard for me to make a decision because i trust both of you, especially you. i know you've never lied in this relationship before but why is the hell is he telling me those stories. and i don't think he told me lies. i don't care what the stories might be. but, i've read through your blog and yeah, she fake up stories. i've never fake up stories before, especially when it comes to love. aww, you cheap girl. ass shits ah :( "

smpi hati ko eh uat dier mcm nie. aku da baek tuh kasi dier dkt ko, ko bustard dier. aku taw ko suke kan dier gile rabak, tht's why aku mengalah and give him to you. eventhough dier tk penah sukakan ko, aku taw dier da cube tpi tkleh. so, knpe ko kene mara dkt aku kalo dier ckp dier maseh sygkan aku? terima ajelah. haha, laila..laila! bodo eh ko, apelah ko nie. suka nah rampas org peh happiness. tk baek taw, nnti ko dpt balasan lagi terok dari aku. haha, everyone TK SUKA KALO ORG LAEN AMEK HAK ORG, tpi wht can i do rite? dier aku punye peh dulu, so ape hak ko nk ckp aku rmpas dier ehk? tink eh the past, ape aku da buat dkt ko smpi aku terpakse tipu my own feelings. and itu sume initiative aku sebab aku faham perasaan ko dkt dier. aku tk smpi hati nk rapat ngn dier lagi. beh ko da dapat dier, wah bukan maen kerek lagi eh ngn aku. tk padan sial, bila bobal ngn ko je, ko suka nah criter tentang ko&dier. ko pk aku cemburu ehk? haha, think twice ah. jgn gunekan D sorg je untuk maki hamun org, padahal tu sndiri ko peh salah. thanks ah eh kerana da buat criter. LAILA, READ THIS :)

" Bila-bila, faiz aku punye ehk. " walaupon aku&dier skrg kawan. kite blm ready lagi (:

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Notes : For time being, please don't text me or anything. Just contact me thru House phone or msn. Thankyou :) This is how it feels to be Julinda. shitz :(

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Yesterday, i've got lots of chocolates & i don't think i'm able to finished up all. Thanks to my 2nd brother for helping me to finished the chocolates & now, i'm left with 1 box of chocolates :) mum went to KL for 2 days & she will be back to Singapore on sunday. She left home around 7am & i'm so stupid to wake up late. I wake up very very late, around 8.30am. So, i couldn't get a chance to send mum off. Nah, it's okay. Come on, she's going only for 2 days man. But, tonight who am i going to sleep with? and who will i going to hug when i'm scared hearing misteri jam 12? ahhh, nevermind :) just endure.

My sister & i wanted to go Orchard. And maybe we're not going & will postponed to tomorrow. Why? my ezlink left only $1 plus, i think? So, we'll be going tomorrow instead. I just got a news that i'll be getting my school books only on 2nd January and that happens on school re-open. -_- rilek, chill. I haven't got my school things yet. and it seems like i don't take things seriously. hahaha :)

I haven't finished yet Cinta Fitri season 2, box 20 & there's another 1 more box before i proceed to Cinta Fitri Season 3. I haven't yet watch LOVE & Cinta Cappucino. I've got no time. I'm busy with internet until i forget that there's tons of cd's that i must watch. all this cd's MUST return to Anisah when school re-opens. And there's only how many days left? a week more. Hopefully, i'm able to finish all :) I want to borrow, Cinta untuk Cinta badly :(

I've got nothing to do and i'm so bored, i went to Youtube to do some research on " azab dalam kubur " . And i haven't yet click but i saw the preview and it was so scary & i've changed my mind. I went & search for those Hidayah's movie. And something caught my eyes, " Durhaka Terhadap Ibu ". I'm still waiting for it to load fully before i could enjoy the movie. Afeefaa has give me the weblink movie where i can watch Twilight. But it changed my mind, i'm so lazy to wait for it to load. so, thanks ah.

Come on sister, make up yr mind. we're going today or tomorrow? -_-

I'm hungry & i don't want to eat chocolates anymore. Because, i'll eat my chocolates at nights so that i can enjoy and get high! (cheh) wth. My 2nd brother is using my phone still. there's no any electric devices that i can use except for computers. And when i'm using the computer, he kept being sarcastic with me. I hated him for that. And he's selfish! :( Come on brother, i won't be using computer oftenly unless i got my cellphone back :) you better go and buy yourself new phone once you get your pay. ( i know, i'm not a good sister. )

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I cannot sleep, I'm worried, I'm dreaming & i'm missing someone.

I miss someone!
I miss someone!
I miss someone!
And that someone, please please & please.
contact me soon (:
you know who you are.

Cousins, when will we be going out together?
soon ah soon, please?

I think, i will be changing my blogskins again. (By tomorrow.)

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Labels: bored ah bored. bored ah bored. mendak ah mendak. tkleh tido ah tido.

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I'm in love with the song, i hate this part by pussycat dolls. I'm not in the mood to blog because i'm so damn bored right now. I want to go out & i want to follow my 2nd bro lah. Now, it's 11.38PM. & another half an hour, time for Misteri Jam 12. (: goodnite, swit dreams, sleep tight yeaaa? ;D

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I am super-BORED right now. I thought of going out today but, i don't know with who i wanna go out. I think for now & forever, i want to try to stay at home. mendak or not, i don't care. haha. Yesterday, 2nd brother planned to go to Vivo. Everyone agreed since we're so bored at home. Mum's mood was okay yesterday & i really really excited upon hearing the news. Then, sister spoilt our plans. She said that, there's no time for us to walk around because now it's 6pm and by the time we reached there, it's already around 7plus. I was very very pissed off with her. So, we planned to go to JurongPoint & meanwhile, i want to buy my Nike Slipper. Brother really really kind yesterday. It must be his mood. Hahah, he treat me a OP california tshirt & nike slipper. Yup, i'm waiting for next month. My psp that he owned for such a long time. (: hehehe. Thanks yeah bro :D

Yesterday was very chaotic. The Long John Silver service sucks at big time. I lost my appetite already. And i have to eat because the order was there. Ewww, i really really got no mood. But actually, we planned to eat at West Coast. Due to the lazyness after tired shopping, we changed it and eat at Long John Silver. haish. And then, we went home. When the moment i reached home, i tried the things that i've just bought. And so do brother, he bought a white shoe around $39+? I'm not sure with the price. You know that my brother want to wear my nike slipper today? And i simply say no, because i'm the owner and i have to wore it before everyone does. hahaha, buruk kan perangai? ;D

I am so bored! boring gila, mendak nak mampos! ;D
I don't know what i can do now. I've been chatting, reading blogs, watching video, surfing the net. I text-messaged my girls and no one seemed to reply and i get so pissed off. Nevermind, later on i want to continue with my CINTA FITRI SEASON 2. I'll update soon.
hmmm, i'm hungry uh. i want to eat! it's been long time i last eat hor fun (:

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After 2 months, i'm not active in Internet and now i'm back. I kekok with Friendster already. And yeah, with Blog, not really. So, most of the time, holiday i ROT at home doing nothing. And when the time, i get so bored, i would be calling people outz. And yet, i haven't planned another outing for my girls. My brother bought a new headset and idk wht brand uh. ( *i dun care either* ) but yeah, i know that i'm jealous because it's white colour. While mine, black and my headset, the left side, someone in my family tk taw sape left a crack. It pissed me off, really. Ahh, bodoooo. I'm not going to let anyone in my family to used my headset. Never Ever Again :S You want, you go and buy! =)

My 2nd brother went shopping with his girlfriend yesterday(eh?). To get his clothes for his D&D. His theme is black&white. Same goes with my sister&his husband. Yes, the other day on friday we went out to Bugis to find blazer. So, after taking so many many hours. Finally, we got one. And also a vest and now finding white smart long shirt. Everything settled, except for my sister. She got a black dress from Dorothy Perkins which cost her around $69? Yeah. It's black and i've got to find her white accessories.(: phewwww ;D

I'm not prepare yet for school. I haven't bought my books, my bags and everything but stationery, settled! :D Yeah, congrats to Aenn! She passed her N levels and got promoted! :D i'm happy for you babe. (:

I guess, i'm done ;D
I'll update if there's story.

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